From Rocketeer to Puppeteer

I was actually looking forward for my b'day in 2012, but I guess I never learned my lessons. How would I know that someone actually pulled my strings & made me a puppet during my b'day. From a Rocketeer to a Puppeteer.

Yesterday, (10th of Janu_fuckin-Ry) I actually went to LCCT drove almost 2 hours to & fro.... from KL & only to know "she" postponed the trip to today instead. Well... to me it was a blessing in disguise "then". Coz I was super busy yesterday as I plan to free up my schedule & take a day off on my b'day. The reason is so that I could spend my time with the "puppeteer" today which is the 11th of Janu-fuckin-Ry!!!

I went to LCCT again today but I only reach Kg Pandan roundabout before i made a "u-turn" just before the junction of the MEX h'way. This i becoz, i received an SMS telling me to not come to pick her up & she's supposed to call me. And till this very moment, I'm still waiting for her call, sms, ym or twit. Yet..."Nothing"! Smlm dia cakap dia sms 2 kali bagitau dia pospon... tapi satu patah haram pun tak dpt... takpe... aku kan penyabar... mungkin signal tepon or internet or apa2 lah. U should never rely 100% to technology. There's always flaws of messages didnt get thru & yada yada yada. Ive danced to that song many times before & even sang that tune too.

So... takpe... tak marah smlm.... tapi hari ni? It's the cherry on top of the icing. Hmmm siap tanya nak apa b'day? & i said tak payah... by her being here is already a feel good prezzie for me. Yup yup yup.... i've lowered my expectations as she has mentioned that no way we can be together due to "who i am". Its a painful pill to swallow & i did swallow it painfully.

Then that simple message in YM saying that she plans to come on the 13th Jan for shopping... that itself made me happy coz i'll be able to meet her again... but with lower to no expectation this time.... then she dropped a bigger surprise that she would liek to come earlier so that she can celebrate my b'day with me! Isn't that uber-sweet???? I told myself. ok hold your horses kerry.... she's doing this strictly out of friendship & nothin more. I'm down with that... i'm down with that says my heart & mind.

By end of the day... pendek kan cerita... dia tak dtg pun arini? Apa kes? aku pun tak paham kenapa? kenapa buat camni kat aku? aku buat apa kat dia sampai aku kena camni? Tak call or sms or YM or twit or whatever pun nak bagitau tak jadi... aku cam bodoh je drive ke sana.... bukan sekali... DUA KALI!!!

& guess how did i spend my bday??? at home mcm bodoh. nasib baik la ada abang aku teman main 2 game FIFA 12. Tapi yg paling best... dpt makan breakfast dgn Gwen spontaneously. Tu pun sbb bday aku dia teman aku. Kalau tak makan sorg je. Comel la Gwen ni.... baik je layan aku.... hmmmm Sabahan is famous for their hospitality in nature. Which is so true. Lupa marah & panas dlm hati sat. Tapi lepas dia balik.... sambung rasa bengang..... apa la kerry ni.... asyik kena tipu dgn pompuan je.... suka sgt gadaikan hati & jantung utk pompuan main2kan..... adehhhhh

Lunch tadi dgn Farid... luahkan kat dia... semua ni... tu je la satu2 kawan yg bole bawak borak2 pasal ni. Lepas lunch kat cozy house GE mall.... balik umah.... reply to all my FB & twitter bday wishes..... letih wohhhh but i dont have a life... so aku reply each & every message tau.... nobody is spared. baik tak aku??? hmmmm alahai.. felt like a fuckin loser today.

hmmm its wednesday.... & i felt like drowning my sorrows. should i go to Rootz tonite & enjoy ladies nite on my bday? hmmmm... takde mood langsung.... i just wanna watch movie... makan2 & borak2... tu je... tak susah teman aku ni.... hmmmmm

in conclusion.... this bday SUCKS!!!!